There are side effects to pursuing your dream. I didn't really think much about them before this journey started as I tried to focus on the excitement, the congratulations and well wishes. It was all rainbows and unicorns. The thrill of quitting my draining corporate job, the move to a new city, the possibility of the new path were all keeping my mind busy. Now, several months into this new life, I am feeling the side effects. There are the physical side effects of sore back and neck from bending over a jewelry bench all day. The eye strain from looking at microscopic stone settings under high magnification. Oh and the rough and sore hands. Gone are the days when I had long nails, replaced by callused fingertips and achy hands. Then we have the mental side effects. I had no idea that switching from a largely analytical job which included lots of writing and talking all day to a job that is solitary and mostly visual would have a negative impact on my vocabulary and ability to form sentences. Perhaps this is one of the reasons I started this blog, just to see if I could still form cogent thoughts and write complete sentences. Mentally I am also adjusting to my new identity. Who am I in this new life? Before the change, my identity was wrapped up in what I did and who I worked for as is the norm in DC...I was Holly and I worked for Booz Allen. Most often, there was immediate recognition and positive reaction. Many wanting to send their resumes in to me for jobs at Booz. (that part I don't really miss) Since I haven't yet finished school, nor have I gotten my company up and running, I am drifting a bit. My sense of identity still being shaped. Formed by each passing day as I wade deeper into this new life. With some additional time, more confidence and much thought, I know that soon enough these side effects will wash away.
In addition to these side effects, there have been successes and failures. Fortunately I am only photographing the successes. Here are a few of the recent successes:
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Princess Cut settings, one of my favorites. The numbers are
the order in which I have done them. |
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Channel Setting - need to improve my spacing, but not bad
for my first effort. |